17 may, 22:48
It seems that when I have had the inclination to post,
I have not had the time.
When I have had the time I have not had the inclination.
I've thought about it a lot... but not put thought into action.
I have written, but not completed my train of thought...
23 may, 22:02
I've spoken to a few people
who i have not contacted for a while...
each one has semi rebuked me for not being in touch.
Err... excuse me, am I the only one with a phone?
Isn't communication a two-way thing?
So why is it just me who hasn't rung?
28 may, 23:22
I haven't wanted to, perhaps they sense this... perhaps.
They are people I have been close to over the years,
but the relationship generally consists of
them talking & me listening,
though they would not recognise it as such.
They are lovely people. They could do with my support.
But I put off phoning because I know
I need at least an hour (or two) to listen...
It has become something I ought to do, rather than want to do.
For a long time I have not been fulfilled
by merely being supportive.
Friendship is a two-way thing...
28 may 23:58
If they were boyfriends I'd end it saying 'It's not you, it's me'
After all, it is me that's changed not them...
but it's different with friends.
Perhaps this annoyance was a pmt thing...
Maybe we can re-balance or maybe we have run our course,
time will tell....
