Growth of Ideas

23 july, 23:24 

As the moon grows, so do my ideas for another place...

as usual I have too many ideas to realistically work on! 

But, I have learned that I don't need to act on every single one,

no matter how good I may think they are...

 27 july, 22:41

Full moon and the idea is set... but I still have to refine 

& consider some of the angles, the perspectives...

(as well as having time to 'play' with blogger templates)

I've also quite a few ideas to follow through with my work,

opportunities are opening up in many ways & the signs are there...

27 july, 22:43

I'm taking some time to look upon the patterns that are forming...

to see if they add or detract from what i'm already doing,

and where i want to go.

Perhaps i'll muse on things for a full cycle, 

to consider, reflect & feel my way...

Moonlight Affective Disorder?

 21st july 21:39

The effects of low sunlight levels in winter (SAD)
 are widely accepted

but what about lack of moonlight... MAD? 

Perhaps that term is best kept for full moon when many
 break through the barriers of control,

or perhaps dark moon when some withdraw too far,

or perhaps it suits those of us who miss her
in our unpredictable skies.

It may be reflected sunlight

but she diffuses it...

infuses it with her grace.

So many of our race has a form of 

Moonlight Affective Disorder 

 no longer honouring the rhythms

 that beat through the Universe.

But some of us just know...

we don't have to see her

we know...

A Glimpse...

17th july 22:59

a glimpse of her light means so much

but still she sails in cloud

i soak up her rays & hold them dear

then offer them back to the world

Sailing Through Clouds

I saw her two nights ago

for a few brief seconds.

i gazed at the clouds

looking in the direction i knew she was.

She appeared momentarily

then sailed into the clouds

taking her slender crescent smile with her.

16th july 21:47

last night she smiled a little longer 

still sailing through clouds

as sometimes i do too

and together we rise above them...

they are a sea to sail 

with a character of their own

but sometimes

all we want 

is to sail free.

Musing...

 18th june, 22:08

Lately my moon-time misery has been non-existant. I think I have had one briefest thought a month that has made me wonder if i'm due on, or in hind-sight I've recognised the reason for some trifling impatience. Which is as it should be.... more like me. 

But I miss writing here. I have plenty of ideas involving the moon & creativity, the way she affects us in general, or I could just post photographs. But for some reason I don't want to fill this place with other 'stuff'. It's a little sacred space away from the crowds where I can retreat when I feel the need. And of course anyone who happens by is welcome.

I have been musing over whether to start another 'tara' blog... one that i can feel more sociable with. I do write elsewhere too, and some may wonder why i would want another outlet. Whereas some manage to combine all aspects of their life successfully in one place, I've realised I feel better putting similar things together... it helps me focus, as well as acting like a form of filing system. I've a butterfly brain at times, flitting from flower to flower... resting on one for a while before moving on to taste another favourite nectar. Ideas are forming... we'll see.

28th june, 05:45

And just when it seems I have no pmt grumbles I had a bout of tearful unreasonableness. Winding myself up to believe that my man 'expects' me to be a certain type of person... in reality he does nothing but encourage me to be 'me', he really can not understand anyone pretending to be something else, and would be hurt & angry to think I felt that way.  Where did all that come from? A day of biting my tongue & fighting back tears, knowing I was being waspish but unable to stop my self. I can't talk about it at the time without feeling even more badly done-to and going into attack mode. Luckily, we both know me, so no damage was done... but I don't like the feeling... it doesn't really feel like a natural part of me. It's like something else drives me.

That was last week... it dawned on me that it was coming up to dark moon... again... I really must be ready for it next time. If the pattern repeats I could be quite touchy the next couple of months. Hopefully I can be ready to look at the issues that may arise. I don't believe that it is a given that women should suffer like this, but I am curious about what drives these emotions. I have my theories... genetics, culture, patriarchal society, diet... these are pretty well accepted... and I want to look deeper at the astrological aspect, especially as I move towards menopause. This article 'the astrology of menopause' caught my attention Interesting times ahead!