May Thoughts

17 may, 22:48

It seems that when I have had the inclination to post,

 I have not had the time.

When I have had the time I have not had the inclination.

I've thought about it a lot... but not put thought into action.

I have written, but not completed my train of thought...

23 may, 22:02

I've spoken to a few people 

who i have not contacted for a while...

each one has semi rebuked me for not being in touch.

Err... excuse me, am I the only one with a phone?

 Isn't communication a two-way thing?

So why is it just me who hasn't rung?

28 may, 23:22

 I haven't wanted to, perhaps they sense this... perhaps.

They are people I have been close to over the years,

 but the relationship generally consists of 

them talking & me listening,

though they would not recognise it as such. 

They are lovely people. They could do with my support.

But I put off phoning because I know

 I need at least an hour (or two) to listen...

It has become something I ought to do, rather than want to do.

 For a long time I have not been fulfilled

 by merely being supportive.

Friendship is a two-way thing... 

28 may 23:58

If they were boyfriends I'd end it saying 'It's not you, it's me' 

After all, it is me that's changed not them...

but it's different with friends.

Perhaps this annoyance was a pmt thing...

Maybe we can re-balance or maybe we have run our course,

time will tell....